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Heather ~Natural Clarity Coaching~ naturalclaritycoaching.com na********************@***il.com Natural Clarity Coaching on Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, TikTok, and Twitter
Tag: drama
(Just a note to start off with. As promised, more to come on self-acceptance (see previous post) in an upcoming post.)
Anyone who reaches an awareness of the toxicity of someone in their life – be it a parent, sibling, significant other, etc. – has to have experienced a major realization at some point. That a-ha! moment where everything (months, years, or even decades) suddenly makes sense. “Oh, wow. My Mom behaves like a narcissist!” or “My best friend of 10 years has been plotting to steal my partner all this time!” Something will trigger us to see what’s really been going on. An epiphany of sorts.
For many of us, this new reality may become crushingly clear. It could come in the form of suddenly realizing that not only has, for example, a parent not authentically supported us throughout our lives, but they have actually been actively creating and maintaining a negative narrative in their minds about us for years. And, beyond that, they have spread this narrative to others. Maybe we’ve been unjustifiably portrayed as stubborn, selfish, difficult, unintelligent, overly sensitive, lazy, or unable to successfully run our own lives. And there have likely even been occasions when we have spoken up for ourselves when subtle insinuations to these narratives have been made, only to realize that no one bothered to truly hear a word we said and simply went forward as though we had never spoken. Why? Because they’re more interested in keeping the narrative alive, for whatever reason. The whole dynamic of toxic people and their enablers or other people they’ve manipulated is typically a strong one, and, in the end, people will believe what they want to believe, regardless of facts.
Let’s take a closer look at this component of someone spreading false narratives about us and those on the receiving end believing what they want to believe, typically at the urging of a toxic person or people. Let’s face it: if the person spreading falsehoods about us happens to be a parent, many people would simply assume it must be true. Especially those who are not well-versed in toxic behaviours within families, for example, and the mechanisms of scapegoating. And that can be a tough pill to swallow, when you can’t understand how someone could believe something so absolutely inaccurate about you. But, really, anyone who has their head on straight would know better than to accept any narrative about someone without hearing what that individual has to say. And they would also have the option to avoid judgment and simply disregard the information altogether. Where does that leave us, though, when we become aware that not only has someone we may love and trust (such as a parent) been fabricating stories about who we are, but that they’ve spread it to others who are taking it at face value? It leaves us with the opportunity of finding the strength to embrace what our truth is while acknowledging and accepting that any number of factors and variables are at play around us at any given time. And that we don’t need to JADE – Justify, Argue, Defend, Explain – ourselves to anyone if we choose not to do so, especially about who we are as people or regarding our own lives and the choices we make. If someone doesn’t know who we are … who we really are as a person … then that’s their issue, not ours. If they choose to believe someone’s false narrative about us, that’s their prerogative. In the end, other people’s opinions and beliefs about us don’t have any bearing on who we genuinely are. It may disrupt relationships that we thought were deeper, but that’s nothing we can’t survive. Actually, isn’t it better to know than to go along thinking people have our back when they really don’t? I think so.
In the end, these realizations of toxic dynamics in our families and other relationships can be upsetting, disappointing, and hurtful. Sometimes they’re traumatic. Believing that someone has always had our best interests at heart and then finding out that it was anything but, can be gut-wrenching. But we are strong enough to pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off, and move forward. Yes, it can be challenging but, in the end, we’re stronger for the lessons we’ve learned and the empowerment, awareness, and knowledge we’ve gained.
Until next time,
Heather ~Natural Clarity Coaching~ naturalclaritycoaching.com na********************@***il.com Natural Clarity Coaching on Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn, and Twitter
For everyone who finds special occasions like today, Father’s Day, challenging for any reason, I get it. If special occasions also feel like walking on egg shells (or possibly landmines), I completely understand where you’re coming from. This can be particularly so when narcissists are in the picture.
If your family of origin involved narcissism, special occasions were likely incredibly challenging to deal with from early in your life and probably remained that way throughout your childhood and into adulthood. Maybe the narcissistically-inclined parent was your mom, or maybe your dad, or maybe both of your parents. Whoever it was, it’s highly likely that special occasions were often drama-filled, emotionally draining and confusing events during your childhood and possibly into adulthood.
When it comes to narcissists, they feel the need to always be the center of attention, even on special occasions that have nothing to do with them. They will cause drama, upheaval and emotional upset by whatever means necessary. Maybe they’re sulking because the day isn’t about them but they’re making it appear as though someone slighted them and caused the issue. Or maybe they’re starting arguments because they want to take the attention away from the special occasion. It’s possible that they will criticize the people who are trying to celebrate by saying that their efforts aren’t good enough or they’ve done everything wrong. Whatever it may be, narcissists very commonly ruin special occasions, all for the need to be the constant focus of the family. And that toxic, narcissistic energy often attaches to special occasions and can bring apprehension and anxiety to other family members year after year after year. What is Mom going to do to ruin everything this year? What will Dad say to upset everyone so that he can storm off and then be free to do something he’d rather be doing?
Rather than being happy and enjoyable celebrations, special occasions in narcissistic families are often the exact opposite. They are prone to being stressful, anxiety-provoking, emotionally taxing situations that come to be dreaded every year rather than looked forward to. The narcissist’s negativity permeates virtually every special day circled on the calendar, particularly if that day doesn’t happen to be all about them. And even if it is ‘their’ day (say, a birthday), they will regularly ruin those with complaints of the celebration not being lavish enough, or no one got them what they wanted as a gift, or someone else was getting more attention than them for five minutes, or they simply feel like sulking and keeping everyone guessing by not divulging what it’s all about, and so on. There is no winning when it comes to narcissists and special events.
So, is there any way to get through these times as unscathed as possible? In the event that you decide to make a call to your family or drop by for a visit, be emotionally and mentally prepared. Know your limits as to what you are and are not willing to discuss with them. Don’t be afraid to say ‘no’ or ‘that’s something I don’t wish to talk about’. Boundaries are important. If you are pushed and bullied to engage in a discussion that you are uncomfortable with, it’s fine to let your parent(s)/family members know that you need to end the conversation and politely say goodbye. If you are in-person and this situation arises, let them know that you’re leaving and be on your way. No apologies, no excuses, no justifications necessary. You have the right to protect yourself and your wellbeing. Don’t allow the guilt trips or aggressiveness to sway you to stay and possibly be verbally/emotionally abused or attacked.
Obviously being low contact or no contact with your family of origin is a sure way to keep yourself safe and avoid negativity and possible verbal/emotional attacks. If you do reach out to a narcissistic parent or an enabling parent on a day such as today and a phone call or visit is not on the table (only do what you feel comfortable doing), texting and/or emailing are always viable options for sending a message. It’s okay to let your parent know you’re thinking of them in a way that allows you to avoid being drawn into an emotional maze. Sometimes it comes down to what you feel you need to do (touch base with a parent even if it’s difficult, etc.) rather than what you believe anyone else expects from you. If you’re currently in therapy or self-directed recovery work from narcissistic abuse, there is no need to set yourself back by opening doors that need to be closed either temporarily or permanently. Do what you feel safe doing. Maybe reaching out simply isn’t an option for you today; that’s absolutely fine. This is your decision and there is no right or wrong here.
Another way to cope with special occasions fraught with confusion, emotional upheaval and frustration is to create new traditions on your own or with friends, a partner, children, etc. Start a new chapter with these celebrations and rewrite what they will look like for you. Do what you can to let go of the negative energy that has been attached to these dates (likely for years or decades) and make them whatever you want them to be.
Above all else, it’s helpful to keep in mind that narcissists are extremely similar to a tired, grouchy toddler who didn’t get their own way. This may involve sulking, tantrums, childish outbursts and more, but you need to consider the source. Narcissists are disordered individuals who are protecting and seeking to feed their fragile egos at all costs. Not being the center of attention is viewed as a loss from their perspective and they will react in the most immature ways, along with lashing out and attacking those they feel have slighted them by not having their focus on the narcissist at all times. When we can understand the dynamics at play with narcissists, it can make dealing with them much less challenging. Also, keeping our own emotions out of the mix is a beneficial action. Don’t take their behaviour personally and try not to allow them to ‘get a rise out of you’.
So, Happy Father’s Day to all the dads out there! To everyone for whom this day and other special occasions are difficult, I wish you the best in getting through it with grace and strength. For everyone (ACONs – Adult Children of Narcissists) who grew up in a dysfunctional family headed by a narcissist (or narcissists), step up the self-care if necessary in order to stay strong and healthy, and only do what you feel comfortable with. Not everyone understands or could even begin to understand the dynamics of the relationships within your family of origin (FOO) and the narcissist(s) at the helm, so it’s best to take all of the well-meaning societal messages with a grain of salt. No one has the right to push you into contact with someone simply because that someone happens to be a parent or family member. Listen to your intuition and only do what is right for you. Whatever feels right for you, trust it, embrace it and move forward with the knowledge that you’re doing your best and that’s all that matters.
Until next time,
Heather ~Natural Clarity Coaching~ naturalclaritycoaching.com na********************@***il.com Natural Clarity Coaching on Facebook, Instagram, LinkedIn and Twitter
So continuing on from Part 1 of this topic of the tactics used by narcissists in order to control and/or silence others, here are some further items:
Nitpicking and Constantly Changing the Rules – Narcissists are renowned for nitpicking their targets. They will complain about anything and everything about you and your behaviour, right down to the smallest of details. It’s a constant barrage of judgments and criticisms. You’re damned if you do and damned if you don’t. It feels like a perpetual storm cloud over your head. In terms of constantly changing the rules, no matter how much proof is provided or action is taken on your part to meet whatever expectations the narcissistic individual has created, they will continue to demand more proof and also set up new expectations (moving the goalposts). There’s definitely no winning in this situation. How to stay strong: Ensure that you validate and approve of yourself despite what you’re hearing from the narcissist. Try to spend time with people who are positive and kind.
Avoiding Accountability by Changing the Subject – Narcissists are professionals at making subject changes in order to avoid accepting accountability for their actions and behaviour. Typically these subject changes involve making you and all of your alleged flaws the topic of the conversation instead. Accountability for a narcissist equates to damaging their ego and they will do pretty much anything to avoid that scenario. How to stay strong: If you feel that you need to have this discussion, one technique is to continue to redirect the narcissist to the facts at hand. If it isn’t worth it to continue trying to make them accountable, simply disengage.
Name-Calling, Sarcasm, Condescension, Shaming, Insults Disguised as Jokes, and Covert and Overt Threats – When a narcissistic person is not getting their way in the form of controlling and/or silencing you, they will quite often resort to name-calling. The tactic here involves intimidating and belittling you into submission as well as breaking down your confidence and willingness to stand up for yourself. Narcissists will also say something offensive and insulting and then, if you call them out on it, they will claim they were ‘only joking’ and that you need to not be so sensitive and learn to recognize a joke. These dysfunctional people will also use sarcasm, condescension and shaming in very passive-aggressive ways in order to get their message across without being direct about it (which leaves their targets wondering if they truly are ‘taking things the wrong way’). In terms of threats, both covert and overt, these can arise out of a difference of opinion or as a result of your implementation or continued enforcement of boundaries. Again, this is meant to intimidate you into silence and/or compliance with the narcissist’s many rules. How to stay strong: The best response to name-calling, insults veiled as jokes, etc., and/or threats is to put a quick end to the interaction and make it clear that you won’t tolerate intimidation, bullying and disrespect. Then try to ensure that you don’t internalize any of the nonsense that was spewed at you. It’s all fiction and absolutely without substance or truth. None of it is about you; it’s all about the disordered individual and their many issues.
Baiting You and Then Feigning Innocence – A regular ploy used by most narcissists is to bait you (they love starting drama and get bored without it!) and then feign innocence. This involves doing or saying something that they know will hurt or upset you and then when you react, they behave as though they don’t know what you’re going on about plus you’ve victimized them in the bargain. “I didn’t mean anything by that. What are you talking about? How could you even think that of me? You’re such a mean person”. And just like that, they’ve upset/hurt you, made it seem like your over-sensitivity and paranoia caused you to get upset over nothing, and then you allegedly went on to victimize them when they did absolutely nothing to attract your wrath. Tripple-whammy! How to stay strong: One of the tricks to coping with this tactic is to not allow yourself to be baited in the first place. Once you become accustomed to what baiting involves (once you see the specific pattern and cues, you will know what to look for every time), you can refuse to enter the arena before the game even gets started. Shut it down and move on with your day.
There are a few other tactics used by narcissists to control and/or silence their targets but the above are the main ones. Narcissists need to control the people around them in order to maintain their ego-protecting bubble and never have to face accountability for their toddler-like and negative behaviour. If they can’t control someone in their environment, then their next step is to attempt to silence them. As I mentioned in Part 1, the best thing we can do is to educate ourselves on these tactics, learn to recognize them no matter what attempts are made to disguise them, take steps to remove or protect ourselves from these strategies (picturing yourself covered in bubble wrap that keeps the narcissist’s negativity from accessing you is a great use of imagery for strength and protection), and then ensure that we don’t allow any of it to damage our self-esteem or personal peace. If we keep in mind that the behaviours of narcissists have nothing to do with anyone but them and we learn not to personalize it, it can make a major difference in our lives and wellbeing. Knowledge is power and this is particularly true in these situations. And be aware that low contact or no contact with toxic people are always options at any point in time for any type of relationship. Stay strong!
Until next time,
Heather ~Natural Clarity Coaching~ www.naturalclaritycoaching.com na********************@***il.com Natural Clarity Coaching on Facebook, Instagram and Twitter